"Chayah"

So long trapped in the deadness of my sin
Now embraced in Your life, born again

It is not like it was before, nor will it be
Time to process through, the beginning of You, the end of me

Overwhelmed by Your love

I had left all, forsaken, forgotten.... FORGIVEN

You rescued me from the fire
You are my love, my life, my desire

I am broken
By Your grace, I will be whole

I am taking the face off, the shame gone, life will be restored
I am taking the fight there, to the heart of the battle, victory will be Yours

The sky is breaking, the earth is shaking, and i am running...

To Dawn breaking, Light creating, Hope of Your Embrace

Repose

A sparrow flies without a nest
A dove returns unable to rest

In flight, each may seek a path of liberty
Yet year after year, they return to places of familiarity

How long will tweety bird remain caged prey?
The cat taunts with key, but cannot fly away

Potent lips drip with smoke, waiting for you to speak
You offer a gift of no revoke, yet I refuse to concede

Movement of numbed emotion
Hope of low proportion

Nothing to show for the appeasement of our greed
We want and want, yet are full of need

You know the moment the words came alive and I believed
You know the moment their words became death and shattered dreams

Even in the darkest night, the stars align
Even in the darkest hour, love sacrificed

A farewell song

Lay down, why don't you lay down your weary head?
I know you've been running a long time

Don't leave, Mama! Don't leave just yet
I've been waiting with this heart------------- of mine

You don't have to keep trudging down this dusty road
There's been punishment enough- you don't have to be alone

If you would just

Lay down, lay down your weary head...

I kept waiting and praying for the day you'd come home
I've been told this is all the love you have
But I don't know how---------- to let go

Mama!
Lay down, lay down your weary head
We've been running such a long time

Why must you leave, leave as the sun sets?
While I am waiting with this heart------- trapped in time

Mama!

Everyday I'm bleeding, and through these tears I'm pleading
But I hear His voice calling, calling me home

Mama!

Today my heart is breaking, but there will be no maintaining...
Farewell! Farewell! Farewell! Farewell!

Lay down, I will lay down my weary head
No more running from what I can't deny

I believe, believe the sun will rise yet
And there will be peace for this-----------
Heart of mine

The song I write for You

A question reverberates through the corridors of my hollowed mind
Where is the song, the song I write for you?

A medley of the appropriate melodies molded to the shape of each word
I have written and dedicated a thousand such moments

And if I could just erase the pain, the blinding inspiration misplaced through the years, I might unlock the mysteries and find this tongue loosed in its love

Yes, I would write the song, the song I write... For You

It's hard to find words for someone who takes your breath away
Knowing every moment with You transplants beauty into my soul

A question reverberates through the corridors of my desperate mind
How can I write the song, the song to write... For You?

And if I could just erase the pain, the blinding fear manipulated through the years,
I might unlock the mysteries and find this tongue loosed in its love... For You

There's never been a doubt- You are the melody carried through this voice
Even in my doubt, Your love has lifted me beyond the pinnacles of fear

Now I'm doing so much more than just surviving, because You write the song...
The song
In me

One day, I will translate the inaudible melodies climbing through the heavens
And you will hear a song with notes as beautiful as the sun dreaming and the harvest moon blossoming in the night...

And then, you will hear the song, the song I write for you
Yes, you will hear the song, the song I write... for you

old stuff

this is a piece from a good while back, but until I've new goodies to put out, this will do...

Tears of Tomorrow

She stumbled in quietly and asked for a private corner.
All she wanted were some crackers and tea with sugar on the side.
It was a slow night, so I watched her with care.

At first, I thought she was sleeping, her head slumped over, with heavy sighs falling from her chest...
But suddenly her body jerked up, as if awakening from a nightmare, tears streaking down her face like unforgiving rain, soaking through every layer.

The pain in her eyes was undeniable- one could only guess the amount of heartache she had been through. I felt so helpless just standing there, but i didn't know what to do.

Lethargically, I floated through the remainder of my shift, everything a soft blur except her sad, melancholy face.
With attempted sincerity, I questioned how her day was going.
She responded in tears and exasperated turmoil.
I withdrew to the kitchen to bring her fresh tea-On the way out, i shed a few tears myself.

Arriving at her secluded corner, all that remained were several old, decaying pictures of a mother and her children. Beside them lay a simple note:

"I'm sorry I didn't give you more. You deserve it regardless-

that
will never change."

Impulsively, I swept up the pictures as I would any well-earned tip, choking back tears, soaking in the sight of her family.
It was all I had ever wanted, but love was not something my mother knew how to give.
Tears spilled down my cheeks and dribbled over my chin, trickling down under my collar... my shift was over. It was time to go home.

***

I had not seen my mother for over five years. Why she choose to reappear now I may never know. She walked into my life just as abruptly as she once walked out, leaving me only with this one hollow memory...the unforgotten tears of tomorrow